We live for those fantastic and unreal moments of beauty which our thoughts may build upon the passing panorama of experience.
[Rockwell Kent]
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We woke up one morning and suddenly found ourselves leaving the Little Cabin In The Woods. The sun was shining for the first time in weeks, the trees dripping dry in the breeze, all the animals and birds squawking for joy [stellar’s jays, redtails, ravens, crows, various song birds, chickadees, squirrels, chipmunks, the hum of the frogs in the marsh]. I imagine the deer were on the move and my darling little black bear might have been blundering about in the wild roses, nibbling on rose hips with his belly growling. I felt like Cinderella with all my animal friends, humming to myself as I cleaned, the birds chanting out exact harmonies, oh! The swish of the trees! The cabin slowly emptied out and I thought I could see the walls shivering in the absence of the warmth of all my little things. The road out was wet and slippery and we crept along, nearly rolling our entire rig on a sharp corner — thank God we made it down the mountain without a gruesome disaster. Higher up, in the sun, the snow was sloughing off the timber and stone of the North Cascades. I felt sad to leave the mountains behind, and our lonesome woods. As we soared down the Methow Valley, I watched the glorious forests roll back up into the high places until we reached the Columbia River valley where the hills are bare and brown and the stone suddenly turns mafic with the black dust of so many ancient volcano flows.
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At Moses Lake, it rained most of the night. Sleeping in the belly of an Airstream trailer in stormy weather is like sleeping inside the curving frame of a harp. The raindrops pluck at all the metal edges of your glimmering cradle and suddenly you hear melody in everything. The wind moves in arcing falsettos. Sleep is some sort of deeply resonating thrum that drones in waves of slow vibration. The wind howl gently rocks you into long winks.
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We watched, two nights in a row, a huge, orange moon rise up over mountains, the warm light of night pooling in soft illuminations as far as we could see, malleable shadows brushing the sage in slow swoops.
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There’s something I have to tell you about being an Airstream owner, which is sort of like being a caretaker of a family estate, there’s some tenderness required for the caring of old bones. We delight in it. We like old junk with history, it’s why we live in a 106 year old farm house in Idaho — some part of it seems to be on the brink of falling down around our ears, at any given moment in time, but there are echos that resound in those dry old bones, in the solid points of the gables and the decrepit brick chimney, that hold the soul of these antique things that we cherish so dearly — the knowing that others, before us, built and loved the very frames of these things makes for a little holiness in unexpected places. I like to roll down the highway in my silver truck with our Airstream following us like a glad puppy dog, the smudge of gleam it leaves behind in every landscape, the way it refracts exploration. There’s more history being made with every mile we roll over now. I wonder, sometimes, how often the previous owners had their nails painted red (I want to dress like a cute little 50s housewife in floral print, suede and a silk scarf to hold my hair out of the tussle of the wind), how often a they craned their necks to watch the brilliance of transitional cottonwoods along stony flanked, brimming rivers, how often they looked out the windows as they raced trains over wide distances, whether or not they sighed at the beauty of a ponderosa pine and tamarack forest in fall. Oh glories! Oh, take to the highway!
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Back in my darling little house now, there is the grandiose pleasure of cooking on a gas range in beautiful pots and frying pans (oh, the simple pleasures), our view of Scout Mountain lightly crusted with a dribble of snow, long hot baths in the morning with randomly selected books from my various book shelves and hot coffee made with water that boils on the stove top in four minutes instead of twenty. There’s the comfort of the glorious mattress we have on our tall, tall bed! I can barely make myself rise in the morning, it’s like I slept all the summer in the rolling curves of a canoe (I grew used to feeling rumpled and kinked)! I can’t even imagine leaving my little house again in six short months when a new fire season presents itself, so I don’t look that far ahead. Today, I begin to patch and prime my studio space before I paint it tomorrow. I’m looking forward to fresh new starts in my holy little territories. Being away from everything has made it all the more dear.
I hope you’re well, little spruce beetles. More soon.
X
Jillian!
Good to see you’re back home safely, bittersweet as it may be.
I do hope you are well.
I find I read your new posts at some speed, greedily, and then go back and start again, to savor your words and presence.
Missed ya.
That’s just about how I read your letters! 🙂
XX
Homecomings are the best kind of gratitude…It’s a blessing to feel so happy to come home! Enjoy 🙂
but you ARE that housewife with red-painted nails and your hair secured with a silk scarf!
welcome home, dear friend. i feel the joy in your soul.
xx
i am so happy that you went to the methow for the season,
and i am equally happy that you are now home.
as much as i value roots sent down deeply at home,
i know that it is changes and challenges that keep my perspective fresh and open.
it is all of our experiences that comprise a life,
and you live a good one!
xx
Such a lovely post. I lived a life of back-forth for a period of time and I have such sweet memories of those years and the settling in only to be leaving again. Isn’t it wonderful to rediscover what we left behind with such newness? Enjoy these quiet moments.
you did it!!!
you spent your time in the deep dark forest and it served you well
another adventure had!
welcome home Miss J….welcome home
where the heart it, where everyone knows your name, where you can dance to you hearts content….welcome home
love and light
Just smiling at this post.
Conjuring pictures with your words.
(and happy you both arrived home safely!)
xx
Welcome home! I admire your adventurous spirit. 20 minutes for coffee? GASP! 🙂
Woo, welcome home! Glad your first smoke jumper season away was a success! 🙂
Beautiful photos, breathtaking words (I especially love your description of sleeping in the Airstream in stormy weather … ahhh). So glad you’re home safe and sound and truly appreciating all the simple luxuries being home is providing you with! XOX
Home, wherever that may be, is the place where we find peace, isn’t it? It sounds like you are able to make any place you find yourself to be just that
*grr* A good portion of my comment seems to have been eaten by the interwebz gremlins!
I babbled on about moving frequently in the past 19 years but happy to be where we are now and hope to stay put for a good long time, and how I loved reading about your Airstream thoughts, as we seriously looked into one (after seeing how lovely they made it look on one of the few tv shows we catch on occasion – Grey’s Anatomy… shameful, I know
Home, away from home, away from home… 😉 Oh Ms. Plume – bet your Idaho house is happy to have you guys back! Hope your November days are filled with joy!
You’ve left a little “smudge of gleam” with me after reading Your words of homecoming bliss. I could picture you sweeping and cleaning and gathering up all your plumey treasures; whistling and singing and all the animals watching you, crying, bidding you a fare thee well. I’ve missed you! Probably feels like you were gone ages from the gables. Your spirit is renewed and I can’t wait to see and hear what inspires you this coming winter. x
Thanks for the beautiful images and your adventurous life!
What an amazing adventure!! So glad you are settling in back at home while reveling in the beauty of Methow still- two amazing place to spend time from what I can see in your photos!! xo
From one Canadian girl to another…. I fucking LOVE your blog. I can’t tell you enough. Thank you for writing so beautifully about things I think and feel all the time. As a vegetarian too, your post about the hunt was absolutely beautiful, and respectful. That’s the kind of relationship we should have with nature, animals, and carnivorous living more specifically. Thank you! (Also I can’t wait for more jewelry from you- I am hoping to snag a piece for myself).
This post more than others, as you were leaving the Methow Valley, brought to mind the incredible talent you have, wherever you go, of seeing the magic and beauty in places and things. As if you have a magic pair of binoculars that brings things to full color. Where there was silence before, during past fire seasons, now you’ve brought full color to that world. We (your readers) are so lucky that you can share that with us.
I haven’t had a moment to respond to each of these beautiful comments but just wanted to say THANK YOU for them! I read each one and appreciated them all so much. Thanks for being in my world, folks.
XX
Oh Darlin, she’s naked!
Your red nails and just everything speaks about how your are happy coming back home 🙂
My heart sings for you too 🙂
xo
just checking in to confirm all is right with your world, which never having met you somehow still matters a lot. So glad you’re all home safe.