…these beautiful, quiet autumn nights that spiral so magnificently into darkness.
I Am Always Returning
[sterling silver, 23 karat gold, lapis lazuli, quartz and vintage angel skin coral branch]
This one really fizzes. It is:
celebration
exploration
deep delving return to self
buoyancy
wild and leaping
serene cascades of light
moonlight through trees
illumination
imagination
the spirit of wild animals
the innocence of wild animals
the savage nature of wild animals
joy
folk art
folklore
a story
my story
scraping free of a hundred razor sharp heart moraines — piled high with the tailings of the violent shifts of dirty ices
gravity
momentum
sweetness
kindness
VOX
truth
the suddenness of knowing just what I am and where I am going
understanding who I have been
forgiveness (of self and others)
transformation
hope
belief
faith
grace
and always redemption
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It’s a lot of other things too, but you’re a smart bunch and I don’t think I always need to spell everything out for you, plain as day. Part of the way you receive and comprehend the beauty of this world is rooted in creativity and imagination! That’s what makes pairing art with a human so special. Your bold interpretation welded to my personal experience and voice…your YOU melded with my ME…well…that’s magic and that’s what it is all about.
I had a good and thoughtful time making this piece. It’s been a while since I’ve created one of my large, narrative neckpieces. To return to an avenue of design that has always been a part of my work with metal felt like a little miracle these past few days. I can remember why I stepped away from it. I had my wings torn from my back, again and again. I’ll never forget why I have returned to it now. Never.
It’s all so true. Really.
Each day of my life is laced up tight with tiny failures and small victories. At the end of everything, when it all draws to a close, I hope the scale tips in the direction of victory and grace, for always.
I realize everything I have typed out here is wandering and perhaps even slightly cryptic. It’s not my goal to sound pretentiously mysterious in any way. Some things are so sensitive and delicate that they need sheltering and tenderness or they won’t make it through to the strength and power of full fruition.
Here’s the thing: In this work, there’s always time to start again. And again. I come around in wide arcs, I orbit that steady center, hear the still small voice and kneel down by the burning bush. I lose my way, ask for directions, struggle up hill, coast into valleys…and all the while I get a firmer grip on the very definition of humility.
I know you probably know just what I mean.
Thanks for being here today.
X
Last Gasp
[Last Gasp Rings :: sterling silver & chalcedony]
In the thick of turning
the last gasp of summer
comes on pushing green and bright
near to ground
round rock roots
in the widening patches of sunlight spooling
[bristling feathers
woolly stalks
mosses star spangled and shivering]
as the aspens turn gold
and throw themselves to the ground.
I love this time of year.
The final, desperate push of summer in the September daytime, the crush of winter-coming in the cold of the night.
Oh summer, you cannot stay, there are laws of orbit you must abide by! But we’ll meet again, soon enough.
These rings serve to honor what I see happening in my forest here. Transition. Fade. A final burst of green and growth. The falling away of the rose and alder, the bare bones of the trees standing stalwart and quiet, waiting patiently for the snows to descend. It’s beautiful and tragic, as life and death always are.
Slow Starter
I’ll miss mornings like these at the LCITW. I wouldn’t call myself an early bird, but I am very much a morning person. I rather like everything about morning but especially like the light. The light looks just like I feel — slow, stretching, rising, reaching, yawning, tea brewing, daydreaming morning light. Beautiful. It’s like being with a good old friend, easy and bright…which is a magical thing to think about — being friends with a distant star that regularly supplies my mornings with ancient light. It’s the little cosmic things that make all the difference…
Robert is an early bird. He hops right out of bed with bright, beady eyes and gets to it. It’s almost disturbing to witness the tiny violence of him leaping into day the way he does. He really grabs morning in his teeth and gives it a shake. I like to wake up, lay about in the warmth of my sleep coccoon daydreaming and drowsing before I finally get up, wander down the ladder to the main floor in the cabin and begin my morning ablutions. I quit drinking coffee. Did I tell you that? I quit early on in the summer. I woke up one morning and opined aloud, “I think this junk hurts my stomach.” That morning, I had herbal tea instead, and then the next day too, and so on and so forth until I was an official non-coffee-drinker. It wasn’t hard. It feels good. My stomach feels much better, all the time. On a whim, I made myself a cup a few weeks ago, just to see what would happen to me if I reintroduced it to my purified system. I spent most of the day twitching and stuttering, my limbs were herky jerky, my mind was racing. It was awful.
Anyway, now that I am exclusively a tea drinker, I brew my tea (today it is double bergamot earl grey decaf) and usually go for a walk in the woods with my cup in hand (out to the tabernacle) or I settle down on the loveseat here and write for a while. Sometimes I write for me, other times I pen letters to far away friends. The dogs come in and out, checking in on me, waggling and wiggling and smiling. Farley puts his head on my lap and asks for a ear rub. Tater Tot bites my pen. They like the morning too. Penelope usually hops up with me and curls herself around my feet which is a soft and warm sensory experience. I have been known to say that I keep a weenie dog simply as a foot warming apparatus. But don’t worry, I am sweet on her beyond this appointed capacity of hers. Unless she’s being bad. When she is bad, she’s terribly bad. And the cat? Rhubarb is usually passed out somewhere after a night of hunting in the wilds here. He brought home a rabbit two weeks ago. Unbelievable, right? It was sad, but only natural.
My mornings dawdle, draw themselves towards noon — creeping, leaping, shimmying and sashaying. After my first cup of tea, I have a second. I make something to eat. I dawdle about some more. I sketch out a ring idea. I tidy the kitchen. I go running. I wonder what the new bird song is I’m hearing. I feed the cat. And eventually I make my way to work where I usually stay late. Last night I was in the Airstream until 10PM or so. A late start means a late end to the day. I’m slow to begin but a strong finisher. I wouldn’t have it any other way.
I wonder though, what are your mornings like? What would you change, if you could? What is the very best thing about the way you start the day? I ask because I want to know, but also because it’s good to inspect things from time to time, make the changes that need changing and appreciate the things that need appreciating.
Have a good one, you wild pack of sweet little corkers.
X
Good old guitar, fiddle and country harmonies. Songs don’t get much sweeter than this. Put this one on real loud, step out of your little cabin in the woods, look at the underbellies of the trees and the glimmering star glint, watch the full moon rising and kiss your lover like you mean it.
[Like it? This one is good too…beautiful, creative video as well…]