Bog Water Be Darned

[A reminder that all broken things, even we, have a purpose and a beautiful, divine destiny: sterling silver, 23 karat gold, jade & wild bird egg shell]

Did I tell you about the beautiful little nest RW found me, months ago, while we were up at Tiffany Lake with friends?  Well.  He found a beautiful little nest in the marsh there and said, “Jillian!  I have a present for you!”  He’s just so tremendous about bringing me dead things and bones and antlers and shards of remains that he finds when he’s out hunting or away on fires.  He knows I like to honor the remaining bits in some way or another and he knows that nothing tickles me more than a handful of feathers, baby animals or chicks in nests.  He’s a woodsman and is so talented at finding these very sorts of things.  As I was saying, he  called me over to where he was standing and told me to look around very closely.  So I did.  Within seconds my eyes had located the perfect little ground nest, in a tuft of raised grass, directly above the bog water my toes were sinking into (it was terribly cold bog water, my toes were so frozen they were itchy) and I screamed.  I couldn’t help it!  The nest held four beautiful little speckled eggs and they were utter perfection.  Perfection!  I couldn’t stand it!  I folded down to my knees — bog water be darned — to take a closer look and our friend’s dog promptly ran over and squashed the nest beneath her feet (oh woe was me, I nearly cried).  Two eggs survived.  Two eggs were destroyed.  I carefully collected what I could of the broken egg shells and said aloud, “I will do something with these.

And so, now I have.

Birdbrain

I mean gosh.  Just look at those baby birds.  Look at them!  I found this little nest in the blue spruce today (which was no small feat of nest finding, let me tell you, it was a prickly old mess inside that labyrinthe of branches) and nearly squealed for joy!  I didn’t want to traumatize the poor fuzzy little things so I repressed my squawk of elation however, I believe my soul sounded like a tuba on the seashore:

Bumpa-bum-bum-boompa-boompa!

 Once my soul was finished playing the tuba on the seashore, I was struck by the miracle of the fact that little things this delicate, helpless and blind grow up to be birds that soar and sing wild songs.  Then I remembered how all humans begin as tiny little fragile, helpless things.  Even though we grow up into adulthood, there is still and always a little part of us that is breakable, naked and tender and that’s why we should all do our very best to love each other, even when we break each others hearts and murder tiny portions of each others souls…because once, we were all tiny little baby things that could do no wrong, and there’s still a remainder of that reality inside of us all.

I’m a real birdbrain lately.  While being a birdbrain, I’ve been painting little self-portraits with my watercolor paints and finally all the sketchbook work I’ve been doing has made its way into metal:

[sterling, copper, graphite, enamel, mule deer antler tip & 23 karat gold]

This self-portrait really looks nothing like me, but it looks like how I feel.  Which is why I love it.

Like Lichen


I found a perfect puff of lichen on a mountain the other day and was compelled to make some of my own with copper, sterling and 23 karat gold.  I love the result, though my pieces aren’t nearly as delicate, complex and beautiful as the real thing!  It’s still fun to mimic the forms and textures I see in nature — I believe such work pays homage to The Creator.  What forms and textures have you seen lately, in your complex concrete jungles and hushed rural havens, that inspire you and beguile you?