[soon the plums will come]
It’s a morning of pure, springtime glory here. I’m telling you, it’s simply exquisite outside. When I stepped out the back door of the house this morning, the sunshine came on like thunder, I reached a hand up and shielded my eyes from the light as I scanned the tree tops for the source of bird songs. Then, oh holy of holies, I took a deep breath in through my nose and smelled the perfumes of the fruit trees in the yard. Such sweetness. Such promise. And oh, the color of the peach blossoms! I wandered around the yard, yanked at random weeds, rearranged the clematis vines on the trellis of the front porch, and wished I could spend the entire afternoon engineering my succulent garden under the big kitchen window.
We’ve officially tipped off the edge of sanity and into the depths of chaos here, as we seem to do before we make our summer move. There’s so much to do. Appointments to make and keep, random errand running, a truck to send into the shop…I’m stalling. I’m hiding out in the studio most hours of the day. When I go running on the mountain or hiking with the dogs, I go further and higher than usual, because coming home means working towards something I’m not keen to work on: moving. Blah. I’m writing postcards to friends when I should be making lists of all the things that need doing, cleaning, buying, selling, collecting, cleaning, gleaning…lists schmists. Blah.
It’s overwhelming. I’m overwhelmed.
What do you do when you are overwhelmed? I shouldn’t be so avoidant about the packing and moving work. I should grab the bull by the horns and really give it all heck. Maybe I will. Later. Maybe. Maybe tomorrow.
Because I am not thankful about having to pour energy into packing and moving, I think it would be a good idea to make a list of all the things I am thankful for today.
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-this very fine morning, the quality and strength of springtime light
-the fresh garlic I am going to pick and roast this afternoon
-how hard Robert is working to make this as smooth a transition as possible, I’m thankful I don’t have to do it alone
-your incredible support over at the Etsy shop this week (amazing amazing amazing)
-the Airstream (which is sort of like a mythical beast, a true griffin in this life of ours) and the way it makes so much possible for us
-my job
-Robert’s job
-the always good company of the dogs
-the stability of my usually terribly wobbly thyroid
-the 400 black tulips I have blooming in the front yard
-this excellent cup of coffee
-the elk steak we have defrosting for dinner (food, in general)
-the robins on the front lawn
-the view of the mountains from my office window
-the neighbor’s flowering quince
-the blue egg my hen laid me this morning (each one is a perfect little miracle)
-the rabbit skull I found yesterday
-these polka dot socks
-the freedom I feel, every single day, to simply develop and grow and learn and worship and work and express and be and live (not everyone has all these kinds of freedoms)
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I feel better now. Less like a spoilt brat. More like myself. Brighter. Fuller. More grateful. More aware. More focused. Ready to work.
What are you thankful for today?