Catching Up

When I filled the final page, I flipped back to the beginning of my journal, which is also my sketchbook, and the first page was dated April 22, 2016.  Why did it take me so much longer than usual to fill this book?  I used to run out of pages in six or eight months and I’ve been using this exact book for years.  In that moment, I realized 2016 was when a prolonged life transition began for me and for whatever reason, to the detriment of my creative health, my writing was set on the backburner until now.  It was with great joy that I found myself returning to pen and paper at the start of this year; sitting down almost every morning with strong intentions, a clear mind full of wide open thoughts and a general sense of ease regarding time.  It’s that last part that’s the most difficult thing to achieve.  Every morning I have that niggling feeling that I must hurry up and get the day started lest I squander my daylight hours and wind up a pauper in the achievement department.  I push that thought away these days.  I brew a cup of green tea.  I sit down with my favorite pen.  I write.  I sketch.  I glue in imagery from magazines and periodicals that caught my eye — photos, textures, fonts, color combinations…I build my inspiration bank, purge my heart and soul and concoct my dreams for the hours, the days, the years.  It’s good to be back at it.

The upland season closed and as always, it’s bittersweet to see and feel the season pass.  The dogs are unruly in the stillness.  We’re finding new things to do with ourselves.  Thankfully, the amount of work that needs to be done around the farm before the fire season begins develops exponentially, by the day!  We’re ordering seeds, I’m working on landscape design for all THREE of my gardens (I still don’t have enough gardening space!!!), fencing the rest of the horse paddocks, building nesting boxes for the turkeys and ducks, designing an outdoor dog run for the pups, lining up a new farm boy to help me with the irrigation this summer (looks like it’s going to be the sweet Mennonite kids from the next farm over), researching trees for the continuation of the orchard overhaul…

In the midst of all of that, we had a sense of being on top of everything so it shouldn’t have come as a surprise when Hubba Hubba, our exquisite phoenix rooster, perished of inexplicable and unascertainable reasons at nightfall yesterday.  We’re both grieving that little dandy.  He was a great rooster — gentle with the hens and protective of his flock.  He’ll be missed and probably irreplaceable.  But that’s life, isn’t it?  Just when you’ve figured out the rhythm and everything feels like its running smoothly, you experience a setback — diminutive or monumental — so that the fabric of our lives is seismic in nature and constantly folding, unfolding, and fluttering about.  We’ll have to hunt up a new rooster.  I was looking forward to not caring for a bevy of little critters this spring but we might have to do another batch of chicks.  Chicks are a lot of work, my friends.  Last year I had baby ducks, turkeys, chickens and kittens and I could barely leave the property for a few months.  I sigh aloud as I write this though, because chicks are such a delight.  If I must chick, then I must chick and I will chick with joy!

I could not have chosen a better year to add a horse to my life.  Since winter never really arrived at the farm this year we have been able to work with Resero or ride him almost every single day since October.  What a miracle!  He continues to settle in, his trust in us deepens and our bonds with him grow tighter with time and groundwork.  He’s thriving here, we’re glad to say.  Exploring the public lands that surround the farm while sitting on his back is one of the best parts of my days.  Now that he’s here, we can’t imagine life without him.  We thought having him would take the edge off my horse fever but the truth is I infected Robert and he’s just as horse crazy as I am now.  To boot, it’s been my delight to watch Robert learn how to interact with horses.  His riding improves each time he sits on Resero.  We’ll make a horseman out of him yet!

Here’s my current reading list for you to consider:

Lastly, in case you missed it, I did a podcast with Ed at Mountain & Prairie a couple of weeks ago.  You can listen to it HERE.  Ed also chatted with Robert over the weekend so if you’ve ever wanted to hear more from and about that man of mine, you can listen to Robert’s podcast interview HERE.  I also highly recommend Ed’s new bookclub which is rooted in books about the West — Ed reads a lot and his recommendations are always great.  This bookclub just makes sense!

I hope you’re all well.

XX

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I’m working on printing some 8×10 photos for the shop this week…do any of you have requests?  I can’t guarantee I’ll print your requests because I’m batch printing but I’ll consider them.  Email me a screen shot of your faves if you have a moment and are interested in art for your walls!

A glorious thing to behold after a week of fog and drizzle.  We shook our feathers.  We fluffed our fur.  We crunched our way through a frosty hayfield and watched the starling glimmer in the wind.

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A great fog settled over the farm this morning and as I walked around in it and tended our critters I was reminded of this poem:

“I am too alone in the world, and yet not alone enough
to make every moment holy.
I am too tiny in this world, and not tiny enough
just to lie before you like a thing,
shrewd and secretive.
I want my own will, and I want simply to be with my will,
as it goes toward action;
and in those quiet, sometimes hardly moving times,
when something is coming near,
I want to be with those who know secret things
or else alone.
I want to be a mirror for your whole body,
and I never want to be blind, or to be too old
to hold up your heavy and swaying picture.
I want to unfold.
I don’t want to stay folded anywhere,
because where I am folded, there I am a lie.
and I want my grasp of things to be
true before you. I want to describe myself
like a painting that I looked at
closely for a long time,
like a saying that I finally understood,
like the pitcher I use every day,
like the face of my mother,
like a ship
that carried me
through the wildest storm of all.”
[Rilke]

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Sunday Morning




A glimpse of a few quiet moments on the farm this morning.  We had a great day here.  Robert has been away on a mission the past few days, fetching our ’71 Ford pick-up from the Methow Valley (finally) — our final tie to that place has been severed and we are free!  Our rig looks terrible, sadly.  The pal we left it with did his very best to turn it into a heap of rust (not on purpose, just due to thoughtlessness).  That said, the V8 still has that lovely growl I fell in love with (anyone who knows trucks is saying, “But the ’71 came with a V6…” — this one did too, but it was pulled out and replaced with a V8.).  We took it for a quick joyride along the river tonight and boy howdy, the engine still purrs like a kitten.  We have some work to put into this truck and that’s ok.  I don’t think I want to let it go.  Robert gave it to me as a gift, one fire season, when he was still based out of the Methow Valley and we were living at the little cabin in the woods and I view it as a relic of that former life of ours.  We’ve grown so much since then, as individuals and as a committed couple.  This truck is a sort of vestige of our former selves and reflection of the beauty of our life transitions.  How could I sell it!??  That would be like severing an appendage!  This truck is such a piece of us and our story.  We must keep it!  So we will.

We spent most of the day working with Resero doing some important groundwork and desensitizing.  He’s never had a human like he has me now and I’m in the business of making him the very best horse he can be.  He’s a very sensitive boy so we’re starting out slow with a flagged-carrotstick, tarps and basic bending work.  After an hour of groundwork I took him on a long stamina ride to the top of the mesa while Robert and Tater ran alongside.  Once home again, I lengthened the stirrups on my saddle and had Robert ride Resero around our in-yard, coaching him on his posture and generally chaperoning the two (Robert is a less confident rider than I though he is making great progress).

Now we’ve got a fire brewing in the fireplace and pizza cooking in the oven.

I guess I just wanted to say, “Hey!”

I hope your weekend was lovely.

XX

Resero

I bought a horse in July.  It is the fulfillment of a lifelong dream.  I grew up riding horses and ride every chance I get but I have never truly had a horse of my very own.  Resero will arrive at the farm with much pomp and circumstance in the first week of October — which is to say, my sister and her boyfriend are hauling him to Idaho for me and I am going to do a little dance when they pull through the gate, around the corner where the old apple trees stand and come down the final stretch of the driveway to our house.

Let me tell you a few things about Resero.  His name means cowboy.  He is sorrel with a tiny star on his forehead between his eyes and a huge white splash on his rump (it’s getting bigger as he grows up).  He is seven years old.  He is sturdy yet elegant, built somewhat like a mustang but with a refinement to him that makes him seem like a gentleman.  He likes corn on the cob, unhusked.  He is a Peruvian Paso.  My sister’s boyfriend bred, raised, trained and competed on this horse in a professional capacity — to Tanner’s credit, Resero is a great horse because Tanner is a great horseman.  When I sit on his back I feel like I might be siting on a lightning bolt.  He has fire and charisma but also a very fine quality to him that I can sense when I look into his eyes and feel when I urge him into his gait and collect him up tight so that all his fire and power seems to reside in the thickness of his arched neck where it curves up and away from my quiet hands.  He’s majestic and utterly masculine.  In short, he’s superb.

I never thought I would wind up with a Peruvian; gaited horses were generally off my radar until we bought the farm here on the Snake River of Idaho.  My neighbors have Peruvians and I’ve been able to ride those horses over the past year and I really fell in love with the breed.

I randomly texted my sister about Peruvians about six months ago and she almost immediately told me that she and Tanner had a horse she thought would be perfect for me.

I rode him while in Alberta — in the arena and on the trail (and in a river, as you can see here) and I knew he was mine.  Something I love about this horse is that he challenges my skill set.  I am a good rider.  Resero asks me to be excellent, because he, himself, is excellent.  I must rise to meet his high standards.  He’s going to make me a great horsewoman.  For that, I am already grateful.