Backcountry Tea Bag Advice

While in the Sawtooth Range of Idaho, at the end of a long day of walking and fishing, my sweat had cooled on my skin and clothes and I was taking on a chill. I sat down on the edge of the lake I was camping beside, put on my down jacket and set up my stove to make a pot of hot water for tea. I carefully tore open my tea packet, looked down at the little paper label stapled to the tea bag string, read the word there, laughed and spoke aloud to myself, to God, to the lake, to the stones, to the wind, to the coming stars and thin crescent moon, to the dogs who were sitting by my side, to all the night peepers and wolves and wild ones, “Well. Doesn’t that beat all?

From The Road:

I’m just home from a ten day blitz through Idaho.  As I drove, I often found myself singing that wonderful old Johnny Cash song to myself, “I’ve been everywhere, man…”  It was lovely to be in my home state.  I began in Boise where my younger sister and I spent an evening hanging out with Willie Nelson.  Before I left the city, I bought a dress, some truly scrumptious kombucha and hopped up the highway up to McCall — a fire town nestled on the ever picturesque shores of Lake Payette.  There I stayed with a fire wife friend of mine, helped take care of her wee ones while she got out of the house for a short while…we are nearing the end of the fire season now and everyone is tired, myself included, but to be perfectly fair, I think it’s different when you have a couple of babies and your man is out jumping fire.  That’s a real game changer.  To all the fire wives out there who are raising families solo half the year, you have my utmost respect.  Hang in there, gals.  The winter is coming.

From McCall I cruised over to the Sawtooths for a few days of sweating and sunning in the backcountry, and a bit of hotspringing, naturally!  After the Sawtooths, I sprinted down to our home in Pocatello where my friend let me crash on my parlor floor (it’s a strange experience, being a guest in your very own house, but I didn’t resent it, not at all).  I went utterly berserkers at the farmers market in Pocatello, so rattled was I by the shockingly low prices for organic garden grown produce in my home state I bought more than a bushel of tomatoes, a double-dozen bell peppers, sweet corn, onions and then I lost my mind canning in my very own kitchen on a four burner gas range.  Praise God from whom all blessings flow!!!  I just sang that aloud in my opera falsetto.  I ate a few brilliant peaches from my very own peach tree in the backyard — my mouth is watering as I recall those peaches, there’s no peach like your own home grown peach.  I picked plums and canned some plum jam.  I showed my friend how to make grape nectar with the grapes from our five ancient, fruit producing grapevines that line the fence of our jungle yard.  I ate raspberries from my raspberry patch.  Our yard at the Idaho house is incredible, it was wonderful to travel home while it was at it’s peak of fruit production.

 Oh.

It was a great trip.

 I saw pronghorn, a perfect blaze orange harvest moon, a handful of perfect trout, so many of my Pocatello girlfriends (miss you, you beautiful, strong ladies), effervescent constellations pivoting the night sky, many a spectacular sunset, thunderheads criss-crossing the interior, forest fire smoke, the milky white of the South Payette River cutting away at the flanks of the Sawtooths, grouse, aspen on the edge of yellow, a dipper!   I saw a dipper doing its diving work in an outlet creek while in the Sawtooths!  My first one ever!  What a cutie.  I was everywhere, man.  I saw it all.  I felt it all.  And now it’s good to be back.  I hope you’ve all been better than well.

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Here, There & Everywhere

[images taken in Chicago and up on the North Shore of Lake Michigan]

We have been here, there and everywhere and it’s been magnificent.  RW came home from his six week long work detail in the southeast and we took a whirlwind trip to the Chicago area to be with family, our favorite little niece and one of our best friends in the whole wide world.  It’s been a while since we took a trip together and it was my great delight to lay my head down on Rob’s shoulder, while zooming through the sky in our rinky tinky airplane, and take a little nap that way.  Just marvelous.  Lake Michigan is beautiful.  I always forget that the great lakes of North America are essentially inland, fresh water seas.  And that city on the lake…that city…I have always loved Chicago, it’s my favorite big American city that I have visited to date.  Everyone is relatively friendly there and the downtown sector feels like Gotham City to me — tall, cold and perhaps slightly theatrical.  We spent an afternoon at the aquarium (falling in love with the belugas), strolling, laughing aloud at our reflections in The Bean and generally wandering without a care.  I never know what to photograph when I am in urban areas, it’s good to get my camera out of its comfort zone from time to time.  I’m always surprised by how the hubbub of humanity is so similar, in so many ways, to the swirl of nature, when I look at it through a camera lens.

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Now that we are home and life has slid into working order again, we are about to survive two crazy weeks of life!  It all begins tonight with another art walk for me in Old Town Pocatello.  I know!  I have gone art walk crazy!  Guess what, I have yet another one scheduled for the month of June in the Methow Valley.  That’s crazy talk.  Three art walks in three months?  I’ve lost my mind.  No.  I really have.  Ok.  But here’s the thing, one of my goals for this new year was to be more present in my local art communities, to come down off my hermit’s mountain and poke my head out from time to time and really connect with my local people.  I think I failed to write about it in the month of April but my last art walk appearance was SO.  MUCH.  FUN.  I loved every moment of it and did such great work leading up to it and wonderful work afterwards.  It was a perfect kick in the pants.  Additionally, it was so nice to stand beside my work, my bevy of offerings, and say, “Hi!  I am Jillian!  Here’s what I do.”  Over and over again to really lovely strangers and friends.  I met some cool people.  Oh, I met a biologist who is studying the effects of wind farms on bat populations, she was fascinating!  For me, getting ready for these shows is a dizzy-tizzy-studio-freak-show but it’s been more fulfilling than I imagined it would be and I’m going to keep doing them as the dates present themselves.  Tonight I am going to be set up beside a delightful friend who is a painter and leather worker — I can’t wait to share the crowds with her.

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I have a thousand other things to tell you but, it’s art walk day and there is much to do.  I really need to get breakfast cooking and a pot of coffee brewing.  I should have new work listed in the Etsy shop this weekend and I’ll be working on catching up on, well, just about everything in the next couple of days before I begin to taper off my online work and pack for our move to the summering grounds in Washington.  I am not ready for the transition into this fire season and deeply resisting, most ferociously, in my heart of hearts, letting go of my house and the land here.  This move is so hard for me, that’s the simple truth.  I hope you’ve all been well.  I think of you always.

X

Homesome

For being a committed landlubber, I surely do thrive on the moments I spend at the sea.  The interior west and the northwest coast are vastly different places, but I see similarities in the smaller building blocks that make the whole of these places.  I find myself mentally and visually connecting the textures, forms and feels of both regions and am astounded, time and time again, by the harmony between here and there.  There’s cohesion in the way the earth grows and wears away, thins and thickens with the help of the sun, wind and water.  There’s unity in the textures and forms of the jungles and forests.  The sea is like the desert and the desert is like the sea.  This earth is so weirdly wild.  I love it.  I really love it.  I find myself telling it so, when I am out in the glorious grip of the wild places.  I look up at the sky and the sun and the trees and I hear the mountain water rolling and I say, “Creation, I love you.  I love you more and more, every day.”  And then the wind wraps its arms around me and carries me away like a seed.

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I am just home from the isles of the Puget Sound where it snowed, sleeted, sun-shined, blustered, gusted and was generally springtimey lion and lamb weather.  As I drove over Agate Passage, on my way to a ferry ride towards home, I couldn’t help but cry.  I deeply cherished the time I had with friends on this trip.  I held their babies close, read books to my favorite pseudo-nephew, loved on their pets and noticed the progress of their houseplants, laughed a lot, slept too little, and drank so much excellent coffee!  It is the Seattle area, after all, and I tend to overindulge in caffeinated beverages while visiting.  It was a lonesome and gnarly trip home across Washington, Oregon and Idaho with highway smash ups and wintry weather causing delays in some of the mountain passes.  It was made even lonesome-er knowing that I was returning home to a cold bed, a fridge festering with expired foods, and the full weight of household duties since my main squeeze is away on an early-season work detail in Arkansas.

Regardless, as captain of this little ship, I’m running things as tightly as I can and have more than enough work to keep me busy!

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Happy springtime to you!  I risk repeating myself, but it’s incredible how quickly this winter galloped past.  In a month and a half, we’ll be making our move to the summer home, cramming all we can into the Airstream and heading northwest on the glorious highways and byways for a new season of life.  I don’t feel ready for the transition, but there’s still a little time left to prepare my home and my heart.  I’ll be busy as a honey bee in a field of canola until we go!  The month of April holds an Artwalk appearance for me here in our quaint little town (preparing for it will be an act of wild desperation — and yet, I’m excited), a trip to the Chicago area (my favorite big American city), two shed hunting trips to the Idaho side of the Tetons and seeing as much of our beloved friends here as possible, before we all part ways for the fire season.

Buckle up, buttercups.  We’re all set to zoom.

I hope you are well wherever you are.  Thanks for being here today, and always.

X

Wind Bitten

In the desert, bite or be bitten, sting or be stung.

We used to live here.  We lived here nearly four full years.  After I lived in the Mojave Desert, I realized I could live anywhere.  Our home was at Achii Hanyo Native Fish Facility.  RW was a fish biologist for the federal government and was responsible for researching and raising thousands of endangered fish in earthen ponds every year — a job he was miraculously successful at.  Our home was in a weird chain link compound, in the middle of the Colorado River Indian Tribes Reservation.  The first time I saw the place, saw where we were moving to, I cried.  The house was a single-wide trailer, rat infested and foul.  It took buckets of bleach and seven coats of paint throughout to make it mildly livable.  The first improvement I made involved rippping the tin foil off all the windows.  I think RW’s boss was concerned that I would have a meltdown living there and would force RW to find a different job so that boss-man did everything he could to make and keep me happy.  My every request was granted.  Bit by bit, we pulled that place up by its bootstraps and transformed it.  It truly was a ruin of a place, a broken mess of a project, paired with an inconceivable mosquito infestation (the bogs of Alaska have nothing on this place — I can say that because I have lived in Alaska, and it’s true), pressed up against a desolate outback area with a mountainous escarpment that combed the stars at night.

It.  Never.  Rained.

I remember hopelessly watching the monsoons slide by in the hot summer months.  The humidity and heat of the valley was mind boggling — 110F, 120F, 130F for months and months.  Oh…something in me curdles remembering the heat of that place.   And when it did rain, it monsooned, and our driveway turned to impassible foot deep gumbo.  It was such a slog to drive the miles to town on awful muck that gave way to wretched washboard.  And sweating.  Always sweating.

We had a herd of javelina visit the ponds on a daily basis, a bobcat living on the end of our half mile long driveway, a wild pack of winsome coyotes, a ten foot long rattlesnake that tried to bite me on three different occasions.  We had so very many rattlesnakes.  We had a rattlesnake hibernaculum RW dug up with a backhoe while repairing a levy between ponds (he said there were hundreds of rattlers shooting off in every direction, into little holes, ugh, I still shudder at the thought of it).  We had a large, circular fish tank used for predation studies with catfish (that I used as a swimming pool when the research was completed).  We planted palm trees, cottonwoods and mesquites and the facility began to turn into an oasis in the heart of that scruffy reservation.  We had a large aviary filled with Chinese ring necked pheasant, bobwhite quail, California quail and one white winged dove I rescued named Edelweiss.  We had Farley, our beautiful desert raised bird dog.  We had a marmalade cat named Clementine.  We had a dog named Tuba who died by snakebite.  I had a lot of flip-flops.  I had a beloved 1971 Volkswagen Beetle that had been outfitted into an off-roading rig — a Baja Bug, as they call them.  She was cherry red, had a growly old engine and a loud exhaust, a mint condition original interior and I called her June.  One of my greatest regrets in life is parting with her.  In a wild act of maturity and wisdom, we sold her before we moved North.  I still want her back, to this very day.

It was a good life and at times, it was a bloody hard life.  When we talk about Arizona, we refer to it as the place where RW became a man and I became a woman.  By the time we moved, the heat of the warm months had burned me dry as dust and I was aching for the North, for harder, more defined seasons.  But there were times, in the heart of January, February and March, when the desert was the most beautiful place on earth.  The daytime temperatures were bearable, the nights were cold.  The wildflowers and cacti patches were blooming.  I could run and not risk being bitten by a snake.  Everything was cool and restful and I flourished.

One of the things I love and hate about Arizona is the strength of the sky.  In the summer, it’s unbearable.  Everything there feels burned or burning under the heat and directness of the sun.  I am a Northerner, by birth, by life, by genealogy.  I need my sunlight to come in at a slant, I need it to come in at a mild angle that buffs the edge off the power of the light — it makes daytime more bearable for my eyes and skin.  In Arizona, the light seems to pour down like ballistic cosmic flames.  It will burn the wings off birds as they fly.  If you flip a rock over on the ground, you’ll find it has tan lines.  In February, the difference in sun power between the Idaho sky and the Arizona sky is tremendous and lovely.  I enjoy it, especially after being under the weak, pale roof of winter for months.  The colors and contrast of the vegetation pop perfectly against a bluebird sky.  The sunsets are resplendent, mythical and dynamic.  Arizona, in the wonderful short month of February, is one of my favorite places to be.  That’s the honest truth.

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On this trip, the Mojave held:  the excellent company of best friends, sunsets, cholla bone hunts, a handful of great books from the naked bookseller, buckets of turquoise, long conversations that dawdled into the early morning hours, and perhaps, best of all, and most unexpected, a feeling of love for a former home and the surprise of knowing a place, even after time has passed.

  There’s a constant need in me, because I have uprooted so many times in my life, to define and delve into what it means to belong, what it means to rest in a place I know and love, with people I know and love.  It’s a funny feeling, coming home after a homecoming.  I already miss the Mojave in February.  It’s like a phantom limb of my heart…that dried up, mummified old place — wind bitten and sun scourged, rain flogged and dirt dusted.  It’s a wildly elemental place, bare and brooding, and quaking with life if you can manage to look past the crusty surface of things.  I never thought I would say it, perhaps I wasn’t ready to admit it, but I must tell you, I just love those good old Mojave Desert, February times.